to be honest i’m not even sure if i made the right decision in buying a new car. or any decision at all.
i feel like this year for me has involved a lot of changes, growing past difficulties that were completely unexpected in terms of health (mentally, physically, and emotionally) and materialistic matters (accidentally cracking the screen of my last phone, losing most of my savings to hospital bills,
crashing my previous car into a couch, etc.)
it almost feels like i’m shedding my old self into some kind of new self, and i think the only way i could describe it is
fuck it, i’m going to do it